Totally back from my hiatus

My final examination is completely over incase any of you were wondering. I am deeply sorry for the long hiatus as I needed the space to study. No worries, I'm back and although I might not post just as much, your continuous support means a lot to me!

A word of thanks to those who have prayed for me and have wished me good luck on my exams, It meant a lot to me and because of it, I was sort of able to answer my exams with ease. It was a tough exam I must admit even though I'm an art student, art was not easy either and having to draw anything alive for me was tough. I made it through anyway despite the odd challenges along the way.

A once in a life time experience I might add, I sure do hope I won't fail this examination as I would not be willing to sit for it again, ever. 

With that said, I have ended my high school years!

NOW FOR ADULT LIFE AND TAXES AND TOLLS AND OTHER ENORMOUS THINGS I HAVE TO GO THROUGH UNTIL I DIE. 

Sounds fun. *nods in despair*

Ending high school with the people I am deeply close with is by far the best memory I'll ever have. Landing in art stream, I'd never expect to be in a class full of whack people who were similar to me; crazy, fun, sometimes unresponsive but nonetheless a great team, We all had something in common which was our love for food, music and the similarity in family feuds we'd share. A good company my classmates were and will always be. Not forgetting the teachers, they have been the best guidance in all of my school years despite the times I would not complete the work they'd give me, I really appreciated all of their effort to help us and never to judge us. The never ending line "Kamu semua boleh berjaya"(All of you are able to succeed" followed by "Janji jangan malas"(Just don't be lazy")

Words I'll never forget for the rest of my life.

It feels as if it were all a dream, me; ending high school. I feel as though I'm still this kid who hasn't known much of the world yet but I will take this as a challenge to get to know the world.

During high school, there will always be ups and downs. There will also come a day when you'll lose people dear to you but surely enough, people who are meant to be in your next chapter will appear and you'll treasure them as they would in return. Learn to mix around, to get to know people and never miss an opportunity to stand out because in a few years time, the only person who's going to remember these priceless memories, is you. I've lost many people along my journey ending high school and yes, it was painful but I took it gracefully and in return I gained so much more but at the same time, I treasured every tremendous memory I've had from my past because I wouldn't be who I am without the people of my past. I learned to be myself and I've learned to go for the things that I want to pursue without having to mindlessly follow others. 

Despite having a love hate relationship for school, I'll always miss it and the teachers who've sacrificed their time and energy for us too, I'd go back to the last day if I could and tell everyone how much of a positive impact they've had in my life. To end this mushy post, high school was weird but I enjoyed it so I give it a 9.5 rating. No, I'm kidding, school's a 10. <3

WHAT A WAY TO END A POST! 

Till I type again! 

Happiness?

Hiatus? Maybe for about a month I was on hiatus due to school and other complicated stuff!
I'm unable to update as frequently as I would but I will try my best(COS THAT'S WHAT SHE SAID)

Happiness? ..
There are so many ways to define what happiness is; each person has their own view of what makes them happy.
What makes me happy if anyone's wondering?
The little things that people do for me or remember about me and countless of other lovely things.
It doesn't have to be in the form of anything materialistic, the thought of anyone remembering me is enough to make me happy.

There are countless things to be happy about and I don't see any reason why we can't be happy about it.

So what makes you happy?
Think about it and do whatever it takes to make yourself happy but always remember it should be for the right reasons

<3

HAPPY MARCH

Hello and Happy March, everyone!

I know, it's been a while and i've been on hiatus for a bit because of the amount of work I've had to do, but I have not fully abandoned  this blog. If you're still reading this, thank you, from the bottom of my heart. 

High school has nailed me to the ground with work, but in full honesty, I don't mind. I'm thankful to Allah that I've managed to cope with the work that has been given to me, although I lack in certain abilities like being able to finish certain tasks but the will to try and do it, it's there.

I'm slightly shaken that I've come a long way and I'm surprised that I've made it this far,

shockingly, I never expected it without the help of Allah and everyone else who has made a huge impact in my life.

And I am thankful for it.

Besides all that, I have been compiling all of my work that I find are worthy of well, compiling; into one photo book so I will be able to place it where people will be able to see my work on the day of my school's Graphic Exhibition which will be held on April, 4th 2015 and I will be doing a photography booth.

This is my last year in High school, I'd like to make it the best memory before I leave. :)

Pray for the best!!

Promise me you'll try and make your day as memorable as possible?

I'd like to see you happy even if the day seems as if it's not, make it happen. I know YOU can do that.

SEE YOU! <3 <3

What If It Were Different

The most terrifying species is the human race sometimes...we always tend to hate the bad side of people, we talk bad about them and we become the poison to another person until we've pushed them too far. We poison them even when they've only tried to do good, we poison them from their past mistakes, we poison them for life in our hearts and minds for something they have no control of or the little mistakes that they have done. And when they fall ill, rarely anyone will know because they suffered alone, the poison continues eating them from the inside. And when they are gone and everyone knows, somehow they seem to act as if they were saints. They'd start to regret every little thing they have said and done but it's too late now.

What if we flipped that around this time? Instead of making fun of someone, hurting them or spreading unwanted lies or even true things, why can't we be nice to even the most unpleasant people. Why don't we try looking at the positive things that people have instead of the negative.

To me, it's no use if you tell people you are religious if you lack empathy, love and everything positive. At least try to say something good, be nice and not rude. Never forget to say sorry even if you haven't done anything wrong and never forget to forgive. Make someone happy and help someone, they will never forget that and in return kindness will come back to you. Let's be what real humans atr meant to be.

Happy Late New Year 2015!

I'm sorry for the lack of posts during the holidays but I hope everyone has been doing fine lately. I was doing sort of fine.

So I know all of you heard of the "New Year", I mean who hasn't, right? *jokes aside*

WELCOME TO 2015! 

A new page!

Although for us Muslims we've already had our New Years but this is a Universal New Year for everyone in general. I would assume that all of you must have a New Year's resolution and what you are hoping to achieve this year and I am sure every one of you will be able to achieve it. 

I don't have much to say but I'd like to remind all of you that you can achieve anything if you set your mind to it. Do not let people stop you from doing good or trying to be successful in life. Start your year with better people around you and to be more helpful. Tell yourself you are worth more than what people assumed you to be. Start an act of kindness and in return it will circulate back to you. Advise to help and not to hurt. Always try to give a helping hand even if it is the person you are not entirely fond of. Read a new book , write down your memories of every day in a journal, take pictures every day during your adventures and do anything new, everyday. 

It's possible if we try. 

Don't forget to love more and more and to remind others that you care about them. Never forget to forgive even the slightest of things people have done to hurt you. 

Just to tell everyone to have a good year and to always be careful and to just be happy.

I might not be able to update that often because this year is really an important year for me because I have this exam that will probably determine my future. I really need all the prayers for every one of you and in return I will pray for you as well, even if I do not know you, God does.

Thank you in advance for your prayers and have a gooooood year ahead! :3

THROWBACK!

Gloomy Saturday

Despite the gloomy weather today, I try my best to fill it up with positive things and of course, fun things. It's raining so going out of the house is a bit troublesome at this time. So, the internet takes me away or simply just hanging out with my mum and talk loads. And then I remembered, WE HAVE COCONUT JUICE in the fridge! 

Coconut juice and internet for me is haven, sort of but I'm with my mum and my two cats right about now. You can still hear the little pitter patter of raindrops that hit against the window. Enjoyable really and this post is pointless but I just wanted to tell you I had coconut and it was raining and that I've been looking to the positive side of things. I just don't want to let things ruin my happiness. 

MY COCONUT

       

Droplets of rain 

I hope you enjoyed my pointless post. 

I just want to get the message out there that any day can be a good day, it's about how we look at things and what we make of it!

Spend your time wisely and fill it in with the best things that will make you happy. 

Minor flu but I got books!

Bad news is that I've come down with the flue? Or just a minor bug that's eating me on the inside. Just kidding but my ear, nose and especially my throat are killing me. Been numbing it with Ice-cream. Good news is that yesterday I went for the Big Bad Wolf Book fair/sale and bought loads of books and puzzles. By the way, I must've caught that minor bug attack during the time of the book fair because there were many people, maybe. lol BOOKS THOUGH!

Normally these pretty little pocket puzzles would be too costly but not this time.

Got myself four different types because I can. 

Random books. Not really. I quite like what the story was about anyway.

Mum grabbed this book for me, she guessed it would be useful if I were to 

continue and take Graphic Design. :)

A book of coronation questions, I don't know why I got that.

Another book my mum chose because I suck at math.

Basically a lot of books to help improve my photography and an understanding of it.

Cupcake recipes book because I need more ideas.

A huge book with all the greatest logo designs because I need an idea of 

how to make a logo for next year's exhibition.

LASTLY,

BADGES!!! WHO DOES NOT LOVE THEM?!

Also, I have finished my commissions now on to the CARDS and revising on my school books

T_T Nuuuuuu.

That's all for tonight. I'm sick and sleepy but I'll be going again tomorrow. 

Alhamdulillah, Allah has given enough rezeki to my family for us to be able to afford books to gain more knowledge. :)

PEACE OUT YO!

Hiatus & Pet Peeves

I was on hiatus for a very, very, very long time. I'm sorry for that.
After exams I just needed a break from my blog and the seemingly useless advice I would normally give. While I was away, I was just working on my photography and other artsy things to numb the pain in my mind and to numb other things that have hurt me. In the process I just wanted to heal myself so I did.

One of my biggest pet peeves is listening to people who don't practice what they preach. I'm really sorry if that came off as offensive but it really burns my guts to listen to someone brag on and on about a certain thing and how they find it wrong and the next thing you know it, doing what they so called said was "wrong". Please don't hurt our brains for that.

I'll be fair, I am very appreciative towards people that do talk advice and such but if you aren't going to practice what you preach, what is the point? If you advise people on not to do certain things then you should practice what you speak as well. I've probably met a few people who go on and on about how they hate fake people but is it not fake when you're talking trash behind a friend's back and putting a fake smile when you're in front of them? That's hypocrisy right then and there.
I'm very disappointed in the amount of people who claim they can give the best advice but are only hurting the one's with the real problems. And no, not you, unless you felt hurt reading this then maybe you have to look at yourself as well.

That's one of my biggest pet peeves. What is yours?
It could be me and the way I blog or something else. Have your say!

QUICK TIP

If you're not fond of a person's religion, please do not act cruel towards them. Please respect them and their religion. Each religion teaches people to be kind to one another although in some parts of things, we are different but as humans, we are the same. Religion is a sensitive issue and shouldn't be made fun of or be looked down upon. Just because things are taught differently in different religions does not give us the right to look down upon other religion or people in that matter. Look towards everything, equally.

:)
Have a nice week everyone!

SEEK PROPER HELP

Everyone in the world faces problems. Whether they are big problems or small problems, they are still problems and should never be treated lightly. You can't expect everyone to understand your problems because let us all be sincere about this, the only person who knows your problems the most is yourself and God if you hold on to a belief. If a person says they understand you perfectly, they may only understand it how they think it would be but to fully understand? Only you know what it is like.

If you told someone to try and feel what you felt if they were in your shoes, yes everyone would feel sympathy for you and everyone would feel sorry for you but don't ever tell a person your problems are worse than theirs or talk as if it were. They can understand up to a point where you can explain but you can never expect everyone to treat you with kindness and special treatment because it would be unfair to every other person out there. Unless you suffer from a mental illness or illnesses in general, it's understandable. It is enough that people make each other feel shit because of their lack of understanding towards each other. No two people will fully understand each other and you can't expect people to make time to think about the problems you go through because people have their own. To resolve it, is to talk about it with people such as counsellor's, teachers, psychiatrists, parents but with friends it is only a 50/50 understanding because they have their own problems to deal with.

Everyone has a bloody weakness, including me. Everyone has a problem, including me but the patience to understand another person is tougher than how it seems and it would be good enough not to boast your problems to the world as if they were bigger than anyone else's because everyone's problems are a big issue and with that, everyone should tolerate each other. If a problem occurs, seek help, not spread hate and dissatisfaction because it will only break other people and more problems will keep adding.

Stop spreading the hate problems and start loving. Seek help when a problem occurs.

ENOUGH.

I'll be away for a bit but it's not like I'm going to disappear forever.
I'd like to get a few things straight here about the internet.

Over the years, the internet has played a huge role in our daily lives, especially for people in their younger ages. Social networking for instance, it's a place people log on to connect with people. Sure it's a good thing, if you're wise and you know how to use it well.
For those who aren't? They abuse the privilege of what social networks have to offer. Using it to indirect people, to pour out their feelings of hatred and disgust, to harass people and the list could go on. These are the few negative impacts and dangers of the social networking sites. No one blames the social networking sites because they had only created it for good causes and never negative ones.
We as the people should be the ones educated enough knowing how to use it properly.


Indirect/Bashing
Majority of the people who love to bash others and indirect talk them feel superior behind a screen of a computer or a smart phone but having the guts to say to a person in real life? Never will they or rarely will they ever. You shouldn't be afraid of these kind of people because they have an inferiority complex, low self-esteem in that matter. They aren't as confident as you think they are and you'd be surprised to find out that you've been more confident then they have. No matter, it's best to talk it out with each other so the problem will be resolved. There is no reason to ignore the opposite opponent just because they have been rude to you through the internet or in real life. Make a mends and that goes for the person who is guilty of bashing. Constant ignorance won't get any of you anywhere and the bashing and indirect status updates will keep continuing if it is not resolved.

PS: But I suggest that if a person bashes you and you do not know them, kindly try to ignore them because they are not people worth your time or aliens in that matter. The more you feed them attention, the more they will continue to hurt you so if it seems to bother you, take a day or two off of the internet and you'll notice that things are better and that people can't ruin your happy circle! :)

PPS: Never forget that both opponents should apologise, unless the guilty one was the one bashing then please own up to your own actions because that indirect crap hurts people.


I think enough is enough. 

It's not advice

It's not advice if you're telling people to not befriend a person just because they can't seem to find themselves. It's a duty for people around to help guide them and not be cruel to them.

Where does an adviser stand if the only thing they can say is to ignore the people who are problematic and lost, when they are suppose to help the problematic and the one's who are lost.

Where do you stand if you are a person of advice but never able to listen to both sides of the stories.

Where do you stand if you have no backbone of your own?

As far as I'm concerned, I am willing to help any person no matter what.

I am in the middle of my final exam in 10th grade so the chances of me updating as frequently will be very low considering that I'm a procrastinator and I suck at managing time, but I will try and space out some time to write for you all.

As for my exams, I really hope I'll do well and it would be a great help if everyone of you could please hope or pray for the best for me. I really need the boost right about now and if you've done so, A really big thank you in advance! <3

In case if you wonder if I'm dead or something, feel free to check out my photography blog considering that I'm active there because I just post photos that I have taken during my walks and short journey's throughout the city! And cats! definitely go there for cats!

http://littleberrymomo-photography.tumblr.com/

Receiving advice. An understanding to it.

Receiving advice but the giver does not follow their own. An understanding to it

Never mind about who I am or who I was because that is not for anyone to have their say. Whatever I talked about or whatever advice I give is based on what I have been through or have been in the past. My advice does not mean that I follow every single bit of it but rather to share it with those who just might get something good out of it. Do you understand so far? I hope so.

People tend to ask why a person does not follow their own advice and that answer, even I cannot answer it. That is one problem right there. We are too busy wondering why others don't follow their own advice to even reflect ourselves or even take in what they have given. It is a waste, really. A waste that certain advice these people give are thrown away just because the giver of advice may have not followed their own words. Instead of pondering the thought about someone else, there is the thought of yourself and how that can be improved. Never point out if someone may not have followed their own words, rather take note of that good advice they have just given. Anything related to them(the advice giver) is invalid in your life and you should not ponder about it or try to drive them over the edge for it. The giver of advice is just as fragile as you are.

Remember that not everyone may follow their own advice but they will share it with those who they think may find it beneficial. Understand it and just take my word for it.


Next on my list.......
Pointing fingers but saying as if the words were not meant to hurt

Unsure

I haven't been active for so long and for some reason I've lost all motivation to do so. I'll need some time to get back to my cheerful self and to try and regain my positive side and have a chance to be on my own for a bit.

What is the root cause of every friendship problem? Even though that question has been answered many times, I still ponder the thought of the proper answer to that question. It differs depending on situation but I've asked so many people and I could never get the answer I was looking for. Was it the miscommunication? The petty things friends had kept inside? The petty things that they were envious about? uncountable.

Whatever the answer is, one day it'll be answered. I was thankful to my counselors because they were there to listen and comfort me during school hours and I'm thankful to have my parents who have been trying to be as understanding as possible and the friends I never thought would comfort me. Whatever could have made me feel down, went away. 


I've made a photography blog, please check it out!
http://littleberrymomo-photography.tumblr.com/

Happy Late Independence Day, MALAYSIA!

MALAYSIA'S INDEPENDENCE DAY

31/08/2014

First and far most, I am really sorry that I was unable to update my blog on Merdeka itself but here is my apology/Merdeka post!

I was silly to have forgotten to bring along my laptop charger when I was going to my home town, so there I was, stuck without a charger. Buying seemed quite a waste since I knew I would be back in the next few days.

I hope everyone had a great Independence Day. We Malaysians had celebrated our 57TH Independence day and if you think that isn't amazing, I do not know what to say. It was a day where we were able to put aside the differences in our races, our religions and to put aside politics and more to join together and celebrate this memorable day once again. It was a day of happiness and to be thankful that we live in a country where we live in peace.

As you are all aware, this years Merdeka theme was adapted from the lyrics of the song Warisan that was sung by none other than Dato' Sudirman bin Haji Arshad. Those who know him would not have trouble with this but to my non Malaysian viewers, wikipedia is a few clicks away.

I have to say, although I was unable to celebrate Merdeka to the extent where I would jump up and wave my flag, I would always keep a flag with me at all times, symbolising that I'll forever have the Merdeka spirit in me. Once again, I hope this years Merdeka was as awesome as any other year and may we treasure each Independence day, each year. May we never forget what the people have done for us to give us the Inependence we hold today. May we never forget to stay together as 1Malaysia., as united as ever. Never forget about the people who sacrificed their lives to give us a brighter future as today in peace. Never forget what Independence day is all about.

Never let anyone take away our Independence day, Never.
My belated

"Selamat Menyambut Hari Kemerdekaan Yang ke 57!!!"

MALAYSIA DI SINI LAHIRNYA SEBUAH CINTA


I am forever a proud Malaysian. I will forever be a Malaysian and I will carry my nationality as a Malaysian till' the day I die.
Tanah tumpahnya darahku.

Get Better :)

I didn't know what title to put this under but I have a hunch that it's the type of advice that might help you get better mentally if you're feeling down about yourself so I decided to title it "Get Better" because my mind is also on writers block. 

Enjoy! :)

People tend to judge themselves based on what others have that they don't.
It's got to stop because it is destroying you. You may think it isn't bothering you but you'll always find yourself thinking you are useless when comparing yourself to others. 
You'll always feel down, annoyed, hurt, disappointed and it depends on how you look at things, you may even scoff thinking you are better and who knows what other emotion, simply because you are comparing yourself to another person.

It will make you an even bitter person within your own eyes and even the eyes of people. So don't be surprised when people start giving you less of the attention because you brought it upon yourself. Not to be harsh in that last sentence...//sorry//

So here, to try and get rid of all that, you have to tell yourself that comparing yourself with another person isn't a good way to know your self worth. Yes, some people may be better at other things but are they you? No.
You are different and you have your own talents, uniqueness and a different level of creativity. It will take time for you to shine but you must always tell yourself these positive things. Give yourself a hug and love yourself.
You cannot say you love someone if you don't love yourself.
Tell yourself you are worth loads more than how people describe you to be.

You must also learn to forgive yourself and forgive others, whatever hatred you have towards yourself and others must be thrown away. Convince that to yourself everyday and you'll start feeling lighter. When hatred is gone, so is the heavy feeling in yourself.
When you start to love yourself, you will start to genuinely love everyone and everything around you because hatred is no longer there.

When a bad day suddenly appears, try not to worry because you must always tell yourself that you will make the most out of today and be at your best, the best you can be even for a day. Never forget to smile to the people around you even if they may look as bitter as a bittergourd. You could be the reason for their smile. Make jokes but mind your words and mind your manners. Walk happily and energetically. Don't slouch and moan at the thought of your next class, be happy about things. It will rub off on other people.

When someone hurts you, don't feel the need to backfire and hurt them back, tell yourself that this is only some small pathetic thing that It could be easily swept away. Ignore it. If you have a joke to say, say it and then laugh at it. Don't let people ruin your day or other people's and don't let yourself ruin it either because the only thing that is preventing you to be happy, is YOU. 
And one last out of topic thing is.....

If you put yourself out there, knowing that the consequences of being criticised is high, you have to deal with it because you can't expect everyone to like how you are or we for that matter. You have to be strong and realise it.

I don't intend to be cruel but I couldn't really get the message across in such a polite way so this was the best I could do.

Thank you.. <3

How many times do we pay for one mistake?

“How many times do we pay for one mistake? The answer is thousands of times. The human is the only animal on earth that pays a thousand times for the same mistake. The rest of the animals pay once for every mistake they make. But not us. We have a powerful memory. We make a mistake, we judge ourselves, we find ourselves guilty, and we punish ourselves. If justice exists, then that was enough; we don’t need to do it again. But every time we remember, we judge ourselves again, we are guilty again and we punish ourselves again, and again, and again.”

—	Don Miguel Ruiz (via purplebuddhaproject)

Lost,Loved and Won

“I have lost and loved and won and cried myself to the person I am today.”

—	Charlotte Eriksson, Empty Roads & Broken Bottles; in search for The Great Perhaps (via perfect)