It's probably my mind but I don't know

Sometimes I think people just hate me or just get annoyed with me. Maybe it's just me but I've been feeling this way for quite a while. I haven't even been getting enough sleep. No one really sees how I really am in school. Maybe they do and maybe they don't but I just don't see it. I feel left behind like a lonely person walking behind their friends on a sidewalk. Then again, people tell me they have it worse than me when they don't know what goes on in my mind. I'm starting to feel insecure again and my self esteem has dropped. I even get sad, disappointed and mad easily. I don't mean to do all of that. I just feel hurt. Failing in a few subjects has really made me drop and making me feel really down. I know if you're a person who hates me, you'd probably be happy about this. 

I feel unappreciated and alone in school. I may have friends in school but that doesn't mean a person like me can't be lonely. I could be standing in a room full of people I know and still feel lonely. I've done so much for the people who are close to me but in return some of them give me the cold shoulder. Problem is, I will always give and help until i wear out like a candle. And what do I get in return? Sometimes nothing.

I put people first then myself because I can never solve my own problems so I end up helping others. I put on a smile everyday so my friends won't know how truly heartbroken I am and how sad I am. I laugh out loud so no one will see my weakness. I know by typing this on a blog I might attract hate and other things but I'll ignore it.  I care about everyone but it seems like they don't really care about me.

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Just because I talk with many people doesn't mean I'm not lonely. Sometimes I am lonely but I don't need a friend who backstabs me by posting things about me without thinking how I might feel.

How I Think Sometimes

“I wrote a poem about it, and then threw it away, because that’s the last thing I need right now: More words dedicated to people who will never dedicate a single thing to me.”

—	Thought Catalog (via wanduring)

If I Owned A Typewriter

If I owned a typewriter I would honestly be typing non-stop. I honestly love writing and typing even though I’m not 100% good at it. But, we all start somewhere. I wished I own one of those vintage typewriters. Saw one on Etsy that I’m dying to have but sad part is that I’m broke. haha I don’t want to ask my parents for it. Expensive as heck!

LET ME JUST DROOL AT IT'S BEAUTY!

HAPPY FATHERS DAY!

To all those wonderful Fathers out there, I hope you're having a great Fathers Day Today!! I know I have the best dad in the World because my dad was always there to cheer me up when I was down. My dad was always there to listen to me and he is the only dad who is able to tolerate my foolish attitude on a daily basis. I love my dad to the galaxy and back! Happy Fathers Day to every dad out there and in heaven above. ^_^

This post may be short but sometimes the shortest written posts mean a lot.

It isnt bad

It really isnt bad if you fall in love. You just have to remember to fall in love with the right one. Well of course you will meet people who will just hurt you, but guess what..it will all be worth it once you have met the righy one. God puts you through challenges to make you stronger and wiser so that when the right person comes, you will know what to do then.

Sorry

I am sorry I have not had time to post much. I will try to do so more often. Next one about self harm and feelings.

Jealousy

Well here it is. I'm a person that gets jealous easily. I get jealousy if a girl talks to the guy I'm dating or if the guy I'm dating talks to other girl's. But lately I just have to hide that jealousy. Because if I keep getting jealous, I'm just pushing the guy I love away from me and into someone else's arms.

I don't have twitter anymore so it stops me from reading tweets on twitter that will hurt me or make me jealous. This has nothing to do with trust issues by the way.

Deactivated My Twitter

I know non of you would give two shits about my twitter but to those who do,  deactivated it because of some personal reasons. I had two accounts One on private and the other for everyone to view. My usernames were Sil3nceNSuicide & Isolatedsilence. So if you want to use them then go ahead because I will never be using it again.

Just a tip to all you internet users out there,

'Curiosity killed the cat.'
'Sometimes it's better not to know things.'
'Sometimes it's best not to assume either.'

I loved twitter so much but sadly I just have to for the sake of myself and reasons. ^_^

IsolatedSilence's Blog : Alternatives For Self-Harm.

IsolatedSilence's Blog : Alternatives For Self-Harm.: Credits to whoever did this. If you want it pulled down, please tell me. :)

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Kamilah Sofia ~Kamilahila