A few things about me.

I really do not know how I am able to write so many posts for all of you. To be honest I have not been doing well lately. Everything is up and down and it is draining me out. But because I thought of the many people who needed help, thats what kept me going to write posts. The whole point I continued this blog was to atleast try and help people even if I am unable to help myself.
I only write what I have experienced and I right the lessons I have learned from it.

I am just mentally hurt all the time and within time it shows on me physically. I get eyebags, I dont get enough sleep and I am constantly sad and sleepy and I cry easily.
To be honest, I dont know what is wrong with me. I am able to helo others but I can never help myself.
Im constantly getting the feeling that I am alone in a sea of people.
I know I have lovely people in my life, its just...me.

I write to escape what seems to be reality. I write because I love to do it. I write because my hand does not stutter like how my mouth does. I write because I am able to express how I feel through words.
I write the things that matter to me the most no matter how painful.

Sometimes I feel that I am weak but then again I know I am not weak  I know I am not weak because I am still here, alive and breathing and constantly fighting a battle with myself and reality. I dont know what i suffer from, still.

I am still not sure why my happiness gets taken away so easily. God is.probably testing me but I just hope not for too long.

Even though I am physically and mentally drained, I force myself to keep going and get back up no matter what. Even when my mind tells me to hate myself I keep trying to fight it even though sometimes I give in.

I am here today, even though I sound weak but I know I am not weak and I am not someones puppet. I am an imperfect human being.
If I am still here today, then you can be here and be friend everyday and live everyday to the fullest.